Suicide mission

So, we come into this reality with a plan. As much as everything is chosen for us, the decisions that we make as to how we will accomplish the mission depend very much on us...and what we are up against.

Everything is energy and the driver for the evolution of consciousness is the energetic stability and efficiency of our own selves. How we fit into that equation is not as a constant but rather as a variable. An unknown variable. How we will deal with our exigent circumstance is always a question of time and effort.

The spirit cares little for the "odds" but it does recognize an opportunity. Given the chance to enter into a corporeal entity of opposite sexual polarity, what was used to being in a man's skin can very well find itself accoutered and enmeshed in all things feminine. How to reconcile the dichotomy? You get a gender bender that manifests itself as the person manages to deal with the circumstance.

What happens when you are up against a memorial residue that just won't come clean? You take out the stain as best you can and put it back into the wash cycle for another try, in another life. Progress is progress.

And if the hole you have to patch allows an entity of another kind to gain a hold in your essence? One whose power and influence overtake and overwhelm what you have to offer? Succumbing to the pressure is also energetic in nature. The rupture of the vessel due to too much input can occur. The spirit took a chance and the machine failed to deliver. Not that the spirit would bail, it is in it for the long haul. Rather that the strength of the blockage caused sufficient "blow-back" to completely overpower the system.

The voice inside that is now heard is no longer what we came with but is rather the cry of defeat that is the purpose of the presence of such impediments. It's full-strength resistance convinces the humanity that remains that continuing is no longer useful and that retreat is inevitable and unavoidable. No longer able to sustain the life that it was given, that life is removed as control is no longer possible.

Death may well be an insult to the spirit but suicide is it's most obvious failure. Not only must the process start over but all aspects of the ensuing events must now be added to the account. A debit on the ledger of life and a mark on the nature of the future endeavors. No more and no less, it is nonetheless one step forward and two steps back.

Once we know that it is a tactic and a subterfuge, we are better able to deal with this saddest of all demises.